While reading through Psalms I have found David to be a very interesting person. I don't believe anyone has wrestled with God much like David has. He goes through many highs and lows in his relationship with God. Some times he is amazed by God and seeking to please God ever more. While other times he is eagerly looking for God as he feels God has abandoned him or isn't around for him.
After the series of events that have taken place in my life this summer I have found myself relating to David in many ways, but one Psalm, I feel has summed up my relation to David is Psalm 77. Here it is for those of you who are too lazy to look it up.
Psalm 77
For the director of music. For Jeduthun. Of Asaph. A psalm.
1 I cried out to God for help;I cried out to God to hear me.
2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.
3 I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
Selah
4 You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
5 I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;
6 I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:
7 "Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
Selah
10 Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High."
11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
12 I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
13 Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?
14 You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the peoples.
15 With your mighty arm you redeemed your people,
the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
Selah
16 The waters saw you, O God,
the waters saw you and writhed;
the very depths were convulsed.
17 The clouds poured down water,
the skies resounded with thunder;
your arrows flashed back and forth.
18 Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
your lightning lit up the world;
the earth trembled and quaked.
19 Your path led through the sea,
your way through the mighty waters,
though your footprints were not seen.
20 You led your people like a flock
by the hand of Moses and Aaron.
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Courtesy of biblegateway.com
Lately I feel that this has been me. Crying out to God looking for help during my time of distress, but it feels like God is being distant pushing me beyond the point of absolute surrender. At this time I can't begin to tell you what it is after you have reached absolute surrender, but all I know is that God is wrestling on to that point. I don't know why I feel like God is so distant especially during a time where I have been seeking his help the most, but thats where I am.
All I can do is go on like David and remember the marvelous things God has done and remember on the times God was there in my life the most.
